Life recently

So what have I been doing recently?

As a final year student, my life is considered hectic now. Beside having the thesis's proposal that I have to submit, I'm also working on finding a place for my internship for this July- September. 

Searching was hard, but it's no big deal at all. The hardest part is to apply and to wait for a company or association to reply my emails and letter.  Since i'm interested in engineering and chemistry, my sister recommend me to apply at Malaysian Maritime heavy Engineering (MMHE) at Pasir Gudang and I did. Suddenly, out of the blue, I got a phone call from their HR dept. saying that they want me as their intern. After giving it a longggggggggggggggggggggg thought, I decided to turn them out because of the consequences and the situation.  Which situation, you ask? Seriously? Let say life is though being a student, and happens to be the economy is not quite good. I have to rent a house there, and also maintain the house rent here in Arau. So, in short, money is the problem. It was my lost. I really love engineering though. =(

But then, I have also submitted my cv to other company. You name it, I think I've tried most of it. Petronas, Shell, Petron, Talisman, ALAM, Lloyd's Register, UPM and even international company. The list go on and on. 

What breaks my heart is, I really really really wanted to be an intern at Petronas. Its my dream. but maybe it isnt for me. I didnt get through. Sadly, i have to accept the fact though. 

But fear not! I havent give up searching just yet. I'm gonna try for various places after this. Lets just pray the best for me right? 

for those out there having the same situation as mine, dont give up. When there's hope, there's a way. Just trust yourself eh? 

Hugs.