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have u ever feel like u've been rejected by ur family and friends? have u ever feel how it feels to be invincible? well, try to be me, try to take my place for a day.. u'll know how hurt u are. right now. im feeling useless. like im not needed. so why do i live? there's no one to share my everything with. no one needed me anyway. they are better off without me. im just a burden. a pain in their ass. evetho they didnt say it out loud, i know. i can feel it. and honestly i hate that feeling. at tie like this.. i need my muam here, but her too. she is occupied with other commitment.. i guess its only me that needed evryone in my life. everyone keep leaving me. even my so-called-i wont-ever leave-you-boyfriend dumped me,  every single person i love the most leaves me one by one...everyone keep ditching me without even understanding me. what did i do wrong? i know im not perfect but cant people just accept me the way i am? im sad. i dont see why do i even living in this world... the world seems soo happy without me. a loss of a person wudnt affect much rite? right now, i regret being a human. i regretted continue living. i dont see where im going in this world... can someone play me a music and cheer me up so that this feeling would fade away?